Last weekend I wrote about the emotional struggle I had with doing FIFO work and how much I was looking forward to coming home full time. In hindsight it was a very dark place to start my blog but I see it as a start of a new chapter where I hope to focus on the positives, which if you know me is how I am most of the time.
There was a mixed response and I wanted to clear up some points as with my limited abilities as a writer I may not have been clear. It was how I was feeling about the situation I had gotten myself into that drove me to start writing. I had began journaling which helped immensely but I wanted to get more out of it so decided to share my journey as well. I was so angry at myself and I think that came through in my writing. Without the support of my Husband and Mum I would never have gotten through the last 6 months and they were what lifted me up most days. I want to thank them as they have been in the boat with me and dealt with all my lows and shown me nothing but love which makes me an extremely lucky lady to have them in my life.
I was also however overwhelmed with support and it meant a lot to hear from others so below is a follow on.
Presently I’m working on getting my life back on track as I kind of dropped everything last November. The job hunt is back on here in Perth so fingers crossed that something comes along in the near future.
Now my Mum, Elise’s Nana has gone back to New Zealand and once again it’s just Justin, Elise & I at home. It was demanding on all of us before juggling such a humongous change in lifestyle but boy, I sure did forget pretty quickly how much attention a toddler wants or the energy that they have. Without Nana around just the normal day to day activities like washing, vacuuming and running errands take so much more time (or Nana isn’t here to do them for me). Nana always knew how to make a mundane task more fun. I feel like I seem to be rushing us all the time and if you know toddlers, the more I push the more she pushes back. I was spoilt to have Nana’s help and Elise loved having her Nana around to spoil her as well. It makes my heart melt when she asks after her. Although Nana & I had our differences of opinion, mostly due, I think, to the generation gap (or when I was in a mood and being difficult and/or grumpy) I miss her company and advice a lot.
I am glad however to return to a more traditional household but just wish that Nana (or her Oma for that matter) did live close by as until the age of 7 I lived in a different country from my Grandmother and I think it’s a special bond, which is apparent when they’re together. It doesn’t hurt for Mum to get a break as well.
My husband and I originally hail from New Zealand but consider Perth our home now. The only disadvantage of living here is the distance from the rest of our extended families who all spoil Elise when they can. I wish Elise did have the opportunity to grow up near most of her family and to play with her cousins but that won’t be happening due to what Justin and I have chosen for ourselves. Australia is now home.
It does make me consider how lucky we are to live in a generation where there is air travel and the technology to communicate so easily. It’s hard to imagine our ancestors leaving all they knew to immigrant to the other side of the world never to see loved ones again whereas lots of our family has been to visit us over the period we’ve lived here.
So farewell for now Nana. We love you and look forward to your return in July. XOXO